Friday, May 4, 2018

Famous Last Words: Peace Out Homies

Once I turn in this assignment, I will be done with this class. And then I'll only have one thesis and one final exam. And then I'll be done. I'm walking across the stage in about a week. Crazy... Alright, deep breaths. Don't want to have a panic attack at 5 am. 

I am so ready and absolutely not ready to graduate at the same time. But I am sure that I am not ready to be done with this class. After taking this class for two semesters with Indian Epics and Mythology and Folklore, it's hard to remember a time before these courses. I haven't been grateful enough for this opportunity to read stories from around the world and then write creatively about them. I've been so spoiled!! Maybe I'll just have to audit the course every semester until Laura Gibbs kicks me out. 

I'm currently at my parents' house in Oklahoma City because I came to visit and do laundry. It's weird to be sitting on my bed from high school and think about graduating from college. It seriously seems like yesterday I was 15 and coming to OU's campus for my first Classics Day. It was my favorite day of the year, and all I wanted was to live that everyday at OU. It's weird to think I'll be graduating in Letters, the major I always thought would be so cool to study. I look back at my college career, and I do have regrets. There are moments I'd love to be a Freshman in college again, or if I could just whisper in the ear of 18 year old Jillian. 

But there's other moments that I think life has to keep moving. I don't want to move so quickly I get dizzy and don't enjoy it, but staying in one place for too long, no growth or development, will ultimately limit me. I can already feel how I have mastered a Bachelor's. Of course there's always more things to learn and I wish I could take every class I want to take. But truly, I've figured undergraduate life out. It's time to challenge myself again in more than just course material. 

The day before I moved into my Freshman year apartment, I took my baby brother to Build-A-Bear to spend the day together. I knew he was going to be sad about me moving out, so I wanted to remind him that I would always be his big sister. Now I'm graduating, and he may be almost 12, but I still need to remind him of this. Weird to think this day was four years ago!!
Freshman Year Jillian
Source: Personal Photo
P.S. Laura, if you're reading this, I would love to stay in touch somehow. You've been the coolest professor I've never met! I feel very dorky typing this, but oh well, I'm graduating.

Growth Mindset: Student Quotes

The first quote I found was at the top of the page, but I loved it: Never a failure, always a lesson.
I feel like I mess up a lot. That's not such a bad thing, except I feel like I mess up doing things I should have learned from past mistakes. I think that this is an important quote because, not only should I not get down on myself too much when I mess up, but I also need to remember this for the future. Now that I'm an adult, I really need to start learning from my own experiences so I can start making new mistakes to learn from!

My other favorite quote was an acronym: WIN: Whatever It Needs.
Now, this student did great on their acronym. I like how the word finishes the phrase. But I really chose this quote because I was going to do the acronym assignment myself! But I couldn't think of one. The closest I came was thinking What word do I love. I came up with wine. I was gonna have a cute pic of wine and the acronym over it, but I couldn't think of one! So this person did it minus one letter! Very impressive.
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Grape vines that grow like my mindset will.
(and grow the grapes I need for wine)
Source: flickr

Tech tip: KeyHero

I remember being in high school and testing my typing skills. They were pretty bad. I didn't use the computer as often as a lot of my friends did, and so I could tell how much slower I was with them. My accuracy was horrible, so not only was I slow, but I was constantly having to go back.

I am proud that when I tried Keyhero, I think I did pretty well. My accuracy was 98%. My words per minute were 68. I don't know if that's good. However, I'm proud because I always think of Julie Andrews in Thoroughly Modern Millie and she keeps saying "I can type forty words a minute on my machine!", and everyone seems really impressed. I'm not sure if it was fewer because it was a typewriter you had to push, or if it's a joke that 40 words a minute isn't very good. I may never know.


Wikipedia Trails: Kali to Deportation...

Kali: I started with Kali because I just finished learning about her secret from the 7 Secrets of the Goddesses Youtube videos. I liked looking at how she is worshiped differently in different places, especially her maternal form in the Bangali tradition.

The Caravans- Gypsy camp near Arles
Van Gogh painting (1888)
Sourc: Wikipedia
Saint Sarah: There are scholars who claim that this French catholic saint is in fact a form of Kali worship in the western world, brought to France by the Romani. I'm not sure this is true as the Romani seemed to adopt her as their patron saint after she was in France and she is Egyptian. But it is interesting to think how religions can mix so easily and blur lines.

Romani: The Romani people have always fascinated because when I was kid they would be mentioned in books, and I never understood who exactly they are (Where do they come from? What religion are they? Where are they now?). I always thought they were from Eastern Europe (Romani, Romania/Rome, not so crazy), so imagine my surprise to learn they are originally from India! I should have done more research on this a long time ago...

Deportation of Roma migrants from France: France enforced deportation of Romani people in just 2009! Less than a decade ago France is still trying to stop the flow of Romani people entering the country. I think it's amazing how we don't hear about this, and I associate discrimination against Romani a fixture of the 19th century and before in France and ending with the Holocaust.


Review: Helmets and Creative Juices


Tuesday May 1 Announcement

I thought that this little PSA was absolutely adorable. I love when you get to see a culture update their own ancient myths and legends. Last semester, I started following Buzzfeed India which gives me the modern side of India today. Now I am in this class in which I focus primarily on ancient India. This video was like if Buzzfeed and Indian Epics had a baby.


Thursday May 3 Announcement

This image is so me. When it comes to creative writing (not prompted from school in any way), I have to be in the absolute perfect mood to actually write. I want to get better at this, but for now, yeah, I need this perfect environment. 


Extra Reading: 7 Secrets of the Goddess, Part C

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Illustration of Kali
Source: Wikipedia
For this part, I watched the three videos of Kali's secrets. This was difficult to keep up with, specifically the first video, because of all the Kali'like goddesses and stories. I got confused which stories were actually Kali's and which were similar to her, or ones they are unsure about.

Kali sounds really great to me. She doesn't care about humanity, which is very me more and more every day. She is going to do what nature declares she should, and society can't scare her off.

The most interesting part to me that I would like to learn more about is the Kali encounters. The video mentions a writer who encountered Kali and this encounter inspired him to become a writer of beautiful poetry. I don't associate ancient poetry as something that doesn't care about humanity. Most poets care about nature in how it relates to humans. Also, i would like to meet Kali as long as she doesn't kill me.



Gaia's Secrets: Pattanaik, Seven Secrets of the Goddesses 2016

Wednesday, May 2, 2018

Week 15 Story: Feminine Feelings?

Kyle was a cool guy. In high school he was the star quarterback, but he gave it up to focus on academics in college. He didn't need the football scholarship anyway. His dad's construction company could pay tuition, fees, fraternity dues, and basically anything else Kyle could need. Sometimes when he was running low on cash, he could ask his mom for a little deposit from the Lipstick Fairy. At least that's what she called it since it all came from her running the state's largest makeup distributor. Sometimes though, he had to work odd jobs so he didn't have to explain why he was short on cash after buying some Mary Jane. That wasn't fun walking his fraternity brothers dogs sometimes.

But overall, Kyle didn't have to worry about too much, and in fact, he didn't care about too much. He didn't know what was happening outside of his campus and he wasn't bothered by his limited worldview. He just wanted to hang out, have a good time, and live a good life. He wasn't hurting anybody, and nobody was hurting him.

One night, his fraternity hosted a house party. Kyle could only party until midnight until he had to sober up. He had a family function to be at in the morning. It was hard to leave such a rager, but sometimes life was hard for Kyle.

The poor guy had only a few hours of sleep before there was a pounding at the door. He ignored it the first few times, thinking it must be some drunk guy thinking it was his room.

"Kyle, open up dude!" He got up from his bed and opened the door to see his fraternity big in the doorway with no shirt on. "Listen, I just hooked up with this girl, but now she's crying and she won't leave. Will you get rid of her?"

Kyle didn't want to. No one wants to deal with some overly emotional drunk girl. But he owed his friend one. Kyle walked down the hall to his friend's room and saw a girl putting on her clothes, her appearance in complete disarray. She was drying her tears with the sleeve of her hoodie when she got the chance.

"Hey, I'm gonna walk you out." Better not to give a girl an option, he thought.

She followed silently. They got to the curb, and Kyle was about to turn back and go to the house.

"Can you stay with me while I wait for my uber? I just really don't want to be alone right now."

He didn't want to, but he shrugged indifferently, nodded, and stayed next to her.

Oh no, he thought. She's crying again.

"Sorry, I just can hardly stop. I checked my phone after we... well. I got a text from my brother. Our dog passed away. I've had that dog since I was 7. I just can't believe he's gone."

Kyle stared at her for a little bit, and then looked back at the road. He could remember when he lost his dog a few years ago. It was awful. I guess she's not just drunk, he thought.

Kyle tried to take his chance to leave. "Well I should really be going..."

"I'll never forget," she continued, "playing with him when he was a puppy. My friend Layla came over and he wouldn't stop chewing on her curly, red hair!"
Woman Curly Hair With White Long-sleeved Top
Girl with curly red hair
Source: pexels

"That's funny," Kyle said, "Mys sister Layla has curly red hair."

"Layla Turner?"

"Yeah, how'd you know?"

"She was my best friend when we were kids! But we grew apart when your family moved."

Kyle didn't say anything, but now he was thinking of his little sister, only a freshman in college this year. He pictured her at age 7, playing innocently with a puppy dog. Then he pictured her left alone and disheveled on the dirty floor of a fraternity house after she received heartbreaking news.

"How far is your uber?"

"10 more minutes," she said.

"Come with me. I'll go get my keys and take you home."

She followed him silently back into the house. He wasn't going to let an upset girl go home by herself.


Author's Note: Based on the story from the "7 Secrets of the Goddesses" in which the Buddha doesn't allow women into monastic orders. It is only when he sees his mother crying over his father's death that he can recognize women are also people with feelings and emotions that merit acknowledgement. In my story, Kyle doesn't recognize the legitimacy of a young woman's feelings until he can see his sister in her. He realizes he wouldn't want his sister to ever be in a similar situation.
When hearing the story about the Buddha, it made me think of current feminist movements right now like the MeToo movement. Men often say "I'm a feminist because I want my mother/sister/female cousin to be treated right". "Rape is wrong because I wouldn't want my sister to be raped." To me that is such a pointless perspective. Men should hate rape and inequality because women are humans. But for Kyle, like the Buddha, he has to be confronted by the legitimacy of women's emotions to accept it.



Gaia's Secrets: Pattanaik, Seven Secrets of the Goddesses 2016

Famous Last Words: Peace Out Homies

Once I turn in this assignment, I will be done with this class. And then I'll only have one thesis and one final exam. And then I'll...